Emily

02:02 pm: july 6, 2004
i got my hur did.

today it rained, hard, but then 20 minutes later the sun came out. I like it when that happens. unless i want rain, then i don't.

i heard rumor that britney's supposed 'knee injury' is really just a cover up for something else. LIke another boob job or an abortion or something. Did she really get hurt or is she a faker?
what do you think?

i miss abbey. having someone to talk to at 1am every morning was fun.

Double HOOray for the northwest arkansans that will be visiting jonesboro this month!

peace.

08:59 am: shelby the dog.
I am at my sisters house in memphis today. I spent the night here last night. The place is looking better every time i see it. WE went to ABC this morning which was wonderful, i had been missing my cheese croissant. Julie just got a dog, or found one. Her name is Shelby, after the place where she was found, shelby farms(jb runs there). She is totally a sweetheart. She is still a puppy and loves people. Her attachment disorder is a problem though, she freaks out and barks madly if you leave her home alone. I think she is afraid you won't come back and she will be left alone like she was at the park. so sad.

It is kinda scary being at this house alone...i feel like there is a scary man waiting to break into the house. Memphis people kinda scare me.
I am almost ready to head back to school. NOt to go to class, but i want to decorate my new room and visit friends. That will be fun...catching up and remembering old jokes. I do however want to start my photo class, i think i am really gonna like that class.

Last night i saw 'girl with the pearl earring'. I really liked it. The rest of you who appreciate art w/ a taste of love would like it too.

I wish i could leave on a jet plane with you.

05:30 pm: oh it sounds good to me
Poker last night was a lot of fun...but the night was long. 2am. I walked a way with 3 of my $5. Not too bad.

So far summer is pretty great. I love getting up early with nothing stressful to do...and the things I do have to do are pretty enjoyable.

i put white dots on my toenails:)

Mom is helping Julie with her house today...I think i may go stay with her this weekend sometime. I wish the weather were nicer outside and I would go swimming or lay out in the sun. Days inside are depressing. O well.

i keep seeing my old chem teacher at the gym...she is really in shape for an older woman. ha.

this entry wasn't very c.o.o.l

08:16 am: its raining. its pouring. its early.

Today doesn't feel like monday. I can never keep track of the days in summer. This weekend was nice...very quiet around my house and I got to have a lot of time to myself. Things are back to normal now...more fast paced. I must go bale clothes now.

i want to be an artist. i want to be in love.

04:38 pm: lazy saturday
My dad made cookies with me today: chocolate AND white chocolate chip from scratch, it was a lot of fun. Today has been quiet..julie and mom were in memphis. I keep waiting for the sun to come out, but it just keeps peeking and then hiding again. I wish it would come out and make the temp 90 degrees. I want to go swimming.

Its weird being back at home...i see so many less people than when i am at school..obviously. It's nice at times, but sometimes I wish i could go into the hall and it be loud, guys and girls running back and forth, making up stupid games to pass the time. Or leave my room and visit someone just by going down a flight of stairs. I miss that.

I love running into people around town...the people that you were friends with in highschool, but never really hung out....everyone seems so much nicer now, not afraid to strike up a conversation..just to see how life is going. I like that. But the occasions of running into people are few.

If anyone thinks of something fun to do or just wanna hang out..give me a ring.
Time to dry my hur.

12:45 pm: "this one's going to have to be SMALLer"- dr. b is so cute sometimes
the 3rd biology test of my college career is tomorrow. gag me with a spoon. and the final is on saturday. gag me with a rusty knife. (woh, em calm down.) ha.

tonight will be spent studying..as will tomorrow night and friday. i don't have much more time to spend with people I won't see this summer...that sucks. I want to take some pictures today..ya that will be nice. i need to research dali today...so little time, so much to do!

Julie gets back to the states tomorrow. and i get to see her in 8 days!!! i am so excited:)

Good luck to all taking finals right now and to those w/ finals next week.

over and out.

12:37 am: at madison's house...there is a lot of tyedye. i am tired...this weekend was fun. I met a lot of cool people.

i have so much to study for tomorrow...i really doubt all of it will be done.

this update sucks :)

love.

12:40 pm: i finished my bee design:)
..waiting on class to begin. I really enjoy the down time in between classes. The time actually goes by pretty slowly so i can just relax and get some things done. Everyone seems to be pretty down in the dumps today. I guess just because we are all ready for summer to begin. Sometimes i wish people would just be happy for no other reason than it is sunny outside or they are..ya know..breathing. I guess that is hypocritical to say though. Looking around in the union makes me want to be an architect. They did some really cool stuff in here. Wow.

I am feeling strange about leaving to go home for the summer. I am anxious to spend some time with friends back home...but staying there for more than a few days seems so weird. I have gotten so used to things..my squeaky twin bed...late night snacks on the 5th floor...goofin off in the hallway...sonic trips and adventures w/ m&j...homework....searching for something descent to eat in the caf...meeting new people. I am a kinda sad to be leaving it all summer. But home is good too. And i am sure it will all be here again next year with even more new fun. i hope.

Well, it is off to 2D Design now. so long, farwell.

12:56 pm: shh..
i think the art library is the quietest library on campus.

cranberry mayonaise is the only mayonaise i like. i had some at lunch.

i just bought some bubblicious!

09:21 am: general access computer lab
9:21 in the morning..wow, i have been up for over 2 hours. crazy.
My lab final was easy...and i never have to go back to that class again..mwaha!

The dude and lady who work in this place were totally hippies, well i guess they still are. The guy looks like he just put on a jacket for work and the woman took off her flowers...soon they will go home together, lose the shoes and drab clothes, the man will meditate while his wife whips up another batch of her "special" brownies. that's the life. ha.

job outlook is not too good for the summer. I refuse to work with food..but that wall is slowly being broken down. UGh, i may just donate plasma all summer..that wouldn't be TOO bad.

I wish i had a daisy to wear in my hair.

11:08 am: ..in the event of an emergency, please walk to the nearest exit...
...exits are located at the front and rear of the auditorium.

I feel very quiet today. very...to myself. It's a norah jones day. Quiet days i always spend with her....sometimes she shares the time with james or amelie. Today, it's just she and i. Only 8 more days of school...finals...then summer. No big trips this summer, kind of a disappointment... but i am looking forward to the time. I want to try new things...new people...new places. Summer will hopefully prepare me for all of the work i am going to have to put forth next year...i gotta quit this 'no big deal' attitude at some point.
I am looking forward to next semester already. I just finally picked a few classes that i am interested in..no more of this biology crap/no offense to those who love it, i truly admire you. Living arrangements will also be grand. Having my own space and a SINK..so cool. Not to mention getting the familiar scent of cheese cubes from the "nerds" across the hall all year will be something to look forward too. :)

and i want to walk with you on a cloudy day in fields where the yellow grass grows knee high....so won't you try to come...come away with me and we'll kiss on a mountaintop....come away with me and I'll never stop loving you

...Have an ice cold coke and fresh hot popcorn...enjoy your movie.

11:37 am: Ciao bella....
once upon a time when the world was just a pancake....

Today is a :) day. The weather outside is milky. It's all humid and kinda sprinkley. Oh, sprinkles sound good from tcby right now...why don't we have one here? I am excited about home this weekend. It is going to be super short but I look forward to seeing all of you J-town kids!

Is anyone dying eggs this year? I wish I was, i miss being a little kid and waking up to find that the Easter bunny had come and gotten even sneakier that year about where he had hidden the eggs. I miss getting a poofy dress for church too...those were always cool. maybe next year I'll bring those to my age group...ya i could pull that off. lol.

In case you haven't heard,Jess, ash, and I were ushers at the Michelle Branch concert. It was amazing...she is totally my idol...I painted my face that night to look like her album cover...it rocked.

well I should go now.
ps: i'm sarcastic.

ciao, ciao

06:33 pm: 4 more days of this...
i need to be studying for lab midterm.
i can't.
i need to write my speech.
i won't.
i need to take a nap.
later.
i need a weik hug.
soon.
i need to paint my face.
tomorrow.


Today has been long. Starting w/ my goofy comm class. This speech should be so easy, but she has to make it so complicated, argh. And then biology...maybe one of the worst teachers i've had, lol, the poor dear. then the email that i still don't understand. then the dinner that might as well have been vomit soup. now it's hmwk time and there is nothing i can do to get started.
o well. I can't wait til next week...i think i may spend 2 days curled in a little ball under my covers. :) so good. I am staying the night w/ lisa this weekend...we are going to partay at uca. woowoo!
I got a new carebear blanket...it really brings a lot to my room....brightens things up a bit.

i need to wash my hair.
i will.

03:58 pm: snow
when i was walking back from class today, it started snowing really hard! It was pretty for a while, but then it started to sting my face, summer's too. It is still pretty from the inside though.

so much crap to do again tonight. comm test went well but now it's on to amer. gov't. fun times :) studying for that will take up most of the night, the rest of it will be spent doing a resume and writing an essay. double hooray for me.

Tomorrow night should be relaxing though...I don't have much for friday. something funny happened yesterday...at least i think it was funny. Some people are so weird...like the sit around and think about a person to dislike and then dislike them for no reason. ha. i don't get it, but it is so annoying.

I think we are going to eat tonight...mmm, i be hungry.

An old friend was my waitress the other day...it was awkward at first, but turned out to be really cool. I like it when stuff like that happens.

well, off to study

12:33 am: zz...zzzz.....zzzz
i need to go to sleep! why am i still awake? ahh. i have to wake up really early to read biology before class. i thought i was going to be a good student this semester! o well...that was a joke i suppose...i am doing better though:) i am so glad tomorrow is friday. sleep in time! i have to do a bunch of homework all day on saturday:P but tomorrow night i am going to watch the Ar. GYMBACKS! haha, my first arkansas gymnastics meet, i've heard they are cool. saturday night is a bball game, so double fun. well goodnight all...have a good weekend. omg, its friday right now. night

06:29 pm: i should be reading
I think sometimes i am a better listener than a reader...at least when it comes to things I don't particularly want to read. It would just be easier to concentrate if i could look someone in the eye and they were just talking instead of being surrounded by 60 other things that seem more interesting than reading.
dinner sucked. again. It's really sad that our cafeteria actually thinks that they are giving us an the option of having some sort of healthy well-balanced meal when all they are really serving is carb-packed, deep fried crap with ice cream on top. ugh.
this semester is going better and worse so far. I like my schedule a lot better this semester i think. 2D deisgn is a lot of fun, and something that i am actually interested in. Nothing new happening here in fville. I have a weird sense of loneliness this semester that wasn't here before. maybe the break did it to me. maybe it's because jb isn't here. friends are different now. everyone seems to have found their little space and posse and i feel this backward pattern...like i'm exposing myself and trying to fit in w/ people i've known now for 5 months and longer. hmm. There is a lot more alone time this semester...which i like for the most part.. gives me a chance to have 'me' time and think. ha.
lis came and stayed last weekend. we had so much fun. well of course b/c no matter what we do it's fun. it sucked when she left. things would be different if she were here. better.
my grandpa started radiation yesterday. i've been so numb to it all, and i know my dad wouldn't tell me everything...which i understand dealing w/ me. it all scares me.
i have about 7 different hmwk assignments i need to do tonight. gross. i wish i didn't have to do comm....who does hmwk in communication? no one but us here at ua i bet. I might be taking engagement photos for a couple. kinda nervous. never been paid to shoot before, but it will be a fun first...if they turn out well.
well ....i'm off, b/c i need to read.
adios.

10:15 pm: only 1 hr and 45 min left
Merry Christmas all....or at least what is left of this day. I hope everyone had a wonderful day no matter where you are. I hope families were together just enjoying the company of one another even if that only comes once a year for them.

My Christmas was very good...and very traditional which i love. I went to my grandmas house yesterday which is always fun...and she makes the best lil treats to snack on. And today i got to go to my Papaw's to visit with family which was very enjoyable as well.

It is nice being home...but every year around this time, I start feeling so restless and lazy at the same time. It's just all this sugar and crap that everyone pours in front of my face that makes me feel like I must eat. ha, like its anyones fault but mine...i have to get up and run tomorrow so i can feel better.

Anyways, this update was pretty boring but oh well. Only 365 more days til Christmas again!! yeah! lol. goodnight :)

02:18 pm: i got my #2...my scantron...yup! ready to go!
Well, my cal final is over. Things are looking up. But still today during the test, i realized things could have gone terribly wrong. I walk in the the auditorium where i will be taking my test...take a seat on the front row and try to relax..when you have a test for two hours, you need a couple minutes to relax. Then my teacher stands up and in her horrible nasaly voice, she says "ALRIGHT, CLEAR YOUR DESK, YOU CAN ONLY HAVE A PENCIL AND YOUR CALCULATOR". This seems simple, yes? Well NO it wasn't. I put my pencil on my desk and realize something. I think to myself..."calculator....calculator?....what is this thing she speaks of?" O YA, THAT'S ONE OF THE THINGS YOU NEED FOR MATH....MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE BROUGHT MINE! yes, it's true, i am officially the chief idiot (thanks a.o.) here at UofA. If my thoughts of this test could have gotten any worse...now i pictured myself smashing my face on the desk over my test as a sacrifice of my stupidity. "Now what?" i thought. I HAD to have a calculator, b/c some of the stuff on the test you couldn't do w/o out one. SO i decided to tell my nazi teacher what i had done...not like she would care...she would probably just say "screw you...you lose..ha". But i did anyways. SHe said just to tell her when i got to those problems on the test. I did. She must have won the lottery last night or something b/c she actually took her own personal calculator....even though she wouldn't let me touch it....she took me out in the hall and typed in what i needed to figure. OMG! I couldn't believe it...instead of missing like 76 on my test, i think i only missed like 10, ha. It was wonderful. I should write her a note thanking her for doing one nice thing even though she was a homework nazi the whold semester.

well, it's over now. ONly one final to go. Tonight=not studying and doing something very simple that requires no brain activity :)

Love all....good luck to you that have a final tomorrow.

01:16 am: right now
right now i am sitting w/ andy talking. i will tell you the next thing that comes out of his mouth: "you are moving it w/ your hands....sometimes if you look at it, it will go 'bluuurp'" (talking about his mouse) haha

well tomorrow is dead day, which makes tonight dead day eve. today was good. went to class, left early. then went to lunch w/ mom and sis at bizys, they met the twins....split a "double stuffed" w/ sis...mmmm from rick's. Umm, tonight was the maple street concert...very good as well. Then midnight breakfast here at the dorm...hang out on the 5th floor. now here w/ anday. i really want to sleep in in the morning, but i have a math study sesh at 10am...ugh, should i go? what do you think??


well, guess i should go. ahh, it's already dead day: 1:21AM. gnight all

11:47 am: sniff sniff
i feel bad. woke up w/ stuffy nose, yet at the same time runny (weird), cough, sneeze, headACHE, earACHE, left eyeballACHE again. ugh. but my daddy came to the rescue. i am going to pick up the medicine he got me in a little bit. i even slept by a humidifier so maybe i could breathe...it mainly just made me cold. i also have a rash on my face which makes my life even wonderfuller. i hope fred isn't returning!

anyways, today is friday which means a week from now i will just have 1 final left b4 i go home! hurray. martha is coming tonight, so that will be fun. i haven't seen her in decades. sleep in tomorrow! ahh, the highlight of my week possibly.

its so cold outside